The useless things on my life! vol.10

[mikunicchi]

So yes, I am awake for almost 3 hours and I am gonna die because I am so damn sleepy. It seems I finally lost my sleep too, one of the rare things that makes me happy actually. What's next? Losing Arashi? Damn. Here I said it.

Yeap, I am feeling bad. I don't usually sound so but I really feel bad. Lately I am at the verge of tears and I don't even have time to cry and even if I do no one will try to comfort me as I know.

I am going to school everyday and with everyday I literally mean THE EVERYDAY. Including the weekends too... I feel really bad lately mostly because of it.

What the most horrible is probably I don't even feel like welcomed anywhere. People talk to me because I am good at computer and because I know how to prepare a presentation. But even when I am the one who is preparing everything, still no one listens what I want to say.

I usually won't state my opinions in real life especially when I know it's not possible to change someone's idea. But when I do state something it's usually something simple and useful so I am really sad when no one listens. Like this and like that I am way too defeated. I don't belong to school, I am not brave enough to speak in a group chat and so I am writing all my useless thoughts here.

I am doomed.