[Fanfic] The Girl Loved by Muse [11 / 15]
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mikunicchiTitle: The Girl Loved by Muse
Length: multi-chapter
Pairing: Ninomiya Kazunari x Shimizu Haruka (OC)
Rating: G
Genre: AU / fluff / romance
Disclaimer: Unfortunately I do not own anything about Arashi. Only the plot is mine.
Disclaimer-2: I do not own none of the song nor lyrics that I use. The song is belongs to m:a.ture and I got the translation from the original video of Perfect World.
Summary: Ninomiya Kazunari 28 years old salary man who works for a big company. He is what normal means. He doesn't have many friends, he lives his life without any major changes. One day he met with a girl who is very irresponsible, selfish but loved by the god of music.
A/N: Comments are welcomed! English is not my native language so I apologize for my mistakes!!
Chapter 11 - Perfect World
Nino walked aimlessly as he thought about everything. He wasn't really sure about anything. He really had no idea about how to write a song... Most likely he only did it -actually tried it- once back in high school and it was such a failure that they decided to do a cover instead of a song of their own. He sighed tiredly, as he finally decided to head home.
That was also hard for him. He didn't know what to say to her, as well as he didn't want to see her tears. He raised his head up to the sky. The darkness was thick. It swallowed everything inside, silently and faithfully. He couldn't really remember when the last time he actually looked for stars was. Seeing the darkness made him realize once more, it was hard, heavy and dark for Haru. He stood there about a minute. His eyes, loitered over the weak lights which is very far away. They can't help it, he thought. Tokyo has too many lights.
But still some of the stars, continued to shine through the universe. This also, was something can be count as a miracle.
Nino smiled a little. Waiting for a miracle, won't make anything good, he thought calmly as he started to walk once again.
***
Watching Haru from afar, Nino held the pen in his hand strongly. The white paper in front of him looked as empty as his head. He didn't even have a melody inside of his head... He ruffled his hairs with irritation. As he left the pen and looked at Haru's sleeping face again. He wondered how she managed to hold herself together like that... He wondered everything about her but he couldn't dare to ask anymore after all happened. Staying near her when she needed most, he wanted to do that so badly. Maybe for the first time he knew how alone Haru was...
Nino never had many friends, thinking back, he changed his interests way too quickly when he was at high school. He wanted to be professional baseball player, but he wanted to form a band and left club because of it. That band only stayed together only about half of a year. And he started games. Games were probably the longest thing he had ever continued in his life. Comparing to Haru, he never had much passion about his life.
But still he had been blessed with good friends. Yes, minimal but sufficient. He had a good family which cared and support him always. Comparing to Haru, he knew he had much more pleasant memories with his family than Haru had.
He took the pen once again, writing nothing again, he looked blankly to the white paper. He took a deep breath as nothing came up to his mind. What would Haru do if she was in his place? He tried to figure out how she would write a song. A smile formed around his lips as he figured out her.
He remembered Haru's word about him back then. 'You know you are not as tough as Jun-kun or you are not really stoic as Sho-chan and it’s not really that hard to read you as Oh-chan'
I wonder what she saw in me, he thought. I wonder why it must be me...
He gave a deep breath again as he gave up from thinking. It's not like I would figure her out even if I think so hard.
Then he started to write, without thinking.
***
When Haru woke up finally, the sun was out once again. She felt really tired both mentally and physically. She turned around as a blanket fell to the floor. She blinked her eyes, so Nino returned, she thought. Somehow, she expected him to leave her alone. Like everyone do. Haru was used to being alone. She had many friends, so many that she couldn't even dare to count. But in deep down, she was lonely. It was merely because she never opened up herself really to anyone. She was that girl, who is really fun to be with. Her relationships never got deepened more than some specific things. Machizou-san and his son Shin-kun from the game center, old lady from the grocery shop, the children at the park, and such. Matsumoto, Aiba, Ohno, Sakurai and Ninomiya shouldn't have been different than them.
But right now, Haru didn't know how to face with them. She had no idea about how she should explain everything to them, or she had no courage to tell them everything. However, she still wanted to take that stage with them. She never desired something like this; she never wanted to stay together with someone.
She took a deep breath straightened up herself from Nino's sofa, not knowing how to handle everything. There was no way for her to know anyway. All she knew was running until now. She run away whenever things get hard for her, whenever she couldn't stand being there. That lead her a life without ever learning how to fight and with the same reason, she was now, confused.
She continued to look around her blankly until she finally realized Nino, sleeping on the desk in front of the sofa. Haru blinked her eyes for a few times, trying to figure out why did he slept there... Her eyes wandered around desk, seeing a scrawled paper in front of Nino.
Haru stood up from her place silently. Before she reached out for the paper, she covered Nino with the blanket that has fallen from her. She took the paper gently, realizing immediately that they were lyrics for a song. She breathed slowly, not letting herself to add a melody to it, and started to read it.
Our life goes by
In the blink of an eye
The clock is ticking away our time
Though there's justice in our hand
The future on our own
We get many decisions and choices
Sometimes you have to take a little grief
But the morning will come as we wait for the sun
Now as the lay of light sends its grace
Our fallow soul lies waiting
Once again
You're holding all the pain inside
In solitude tears hid beneath your heart never to be seen
Why don't you just forgive yourself
Through the lonely night on your own
As your feeble heart begins to break
I'll be there and have your back through all
The music attracts me through time
I've been singing for myself
It would always be somewhat personal
I can see it clear now
The further we went on our path together
The further we get our soul united
Thanks for meeting with me
Every song I compose is little piece of myself
But I'll treasure you more
Sorry
With all the words I onyl borrowed
I've been waiting for a miracle to come
So I thought you would accept me
Seems like the gift of love
Making me tender and sweet
I appericiate that you gave me some room to breathe
Somewhere in between the dreams unfulfilled
The future couldn't last
Things seem suddenly routine
With all the things we keep inside
Music drifts from heart to me
All of this I sing to you
You're holding all the pain inside
In solitude tears hid beneath your heart never to be seen
Why don't you just forgive yourself
Through the lonely night on your own
As your feeble heart begins to break
I'll be there and have your back through all
Haru, lay the paper to its place again silently,as she felt her tears fell from her eyes steadily once again. Though this time, it didn't hurt. She buried her face in her hands, closed her eyes tightly and tried to took a deep breath, then made her way out. Leaving Nino like that, she headed outside.
***
Nino felt drained as he left the building of his company late that evening. He felt deflected and angry at the same time. Waking up to an empty house like that, how can anyone blame him? He hated Haru's run aways. He hated that part of her with all his might.
He sighed laudly as he made his way to the studio, knowing that Haru won't be there to found. But at least, he thought, others will be there.
"Ninomiya-senpai~" He heard Araya Makiko, chirpping like some kind of bird. He inhaled a deep breath to hold himself from giving a curt answer.
"Araya-san, is there something wrong?" He asked trying his best to hide the twitch on his face.
"Ah..." she started with a cute blush on her face, "I was thinking if you would like to go out for a dinner now..."
"Sorry, Araya-san," Nino interrupted Makiko quickly. "I have things to do for today, so see you later," he said and hurried his way down to subway station, leaving her alone.
Makiko looked behind him with her mouth shaped like a little "o". She couldn't believe it. This was totally unacceptable! Leaving her like that when she was giving her all to look cuter than always just for him! She exhaled with indignation. Then she made her decision quickly as she started to follow him, before he reached out of her sight. If she needed to destroy that Shimizu girl more in order to get Ninomiya to herself, she would do it gladly.
Of course he didn't noticed her. He seemed to busy with his own thoughts when he took out a paper from his bag. Ninomiya's eyes wandered around the paper until it was his stop to get off. Her eyes, clouded with anger as she followed Ninomiya from afar. She followed him in Shibuya, when he passed all of the good places and made his way to more erratic places. The buildings changed into something more dubiously, as she continued to follow him. Why the hell is he coming all this shady place for her? For someone like her?!
Makiko watched him as he went inside an old building. It was a three floored building, all windows were closed tightly. Makiko gave a deep, irritated breath as she decided to leave for today. But she was determined to come back later.
***
When Nino went inside, he saw other members sitting and playing trupms together. They immediately stopped playin when they saw Nino.
"Oh, Nino-chan! You finally came!" Aiba said, standing up from his place and running towards to Nino. "What happened to Haru? Aren't you with her?"
"Nope, she left early this morning and she is not answering to her phone either," he said tiredly. "Have you guys heard from her?"
"Not at all... It was kind of awkward to call her after all..." Ohno said.
"That reminds me... What happened after I left?" Nino asked curiously.
Other four looked each other awkwardly and finally all eyes focused to MatsuJun. "What? Okay, I punched the big brother, so what!?" he asked crossing his arms in front of his chest. "Don't tell me he didn't deserved it," he narrowed his eyes. Nino laughed to him, and showed a thumbs up.
"I knew I could leave the punching work to you guys," he said, still laughing. Just then they heard a scream and a loud sound of something falling from upstairs. They looked at each other for a moment.
"Is there anyone living up there?" Sho asked curiously.
"I have no idea," said MatsuJun awkwardly.
"Let's go and check it," Ohno suggested as he started to walk to the back stairs.
"Wait a minute Oh-chan! What if it's a ghost?!" Aiba said whispering behind him.
"There's nothing like a ghost in the world Aiba-kun," Sho said but apperantly he was afraid too.
"Guys, we are here for a lot of time, it's not like this building is a hauted house or something like that," MatsuJun says firmly. He was trying to be cool after all. Nino didn't said anything and just followed Ohno behind. When they finally reached upstairs, they opened the door as they welcomed by a huge dust cloud. Dust, hit their face without warning and they started to caugh as Aiba hurried his way to find a window while stumbling over some boxes filled with some papers. When he finally find a window to open, fresh air and light filled the room and they were finally able to see what's inside of it.
It was a room filled with boxes all over the place and the boxes were filled with papers. There were two sofas and a big meeting table in it too though everything was covered with dust. Just then they heard Haru's voice.
"Someone help me!!" Haru called out under some boxes while only her hand was visible through the papers.
"EEEEH!?!?! HARU!??!" Aiba screamed as he saw her hands and runned to help her quickly as Ohno and Sho also joined to help.
"What the hell were you trying to do?!" Nino asked when they finally dig Haru under the papers. She was covered with grey dust from head to toe too.
She giggled though, "I was looking for something," then caughed. "I didn't thought this floor gathered dust this much..." She tried to shake the dust over her hairs. Nino sighed as he started to help her, getting rid of the dust.
"What were you looking for anyway?" MatsuJun asked curiously. Haru's face lit up suddenly remembering her purpose to get inside that room after a long time. "Good job!! I still haven't found it!" she said as she returned to messy papers looking for it.
MatsuJun sighed defeatedly. Then he started to look at the papers which covered all the room. "What are these?" he mumbled himself as he reached for a random one. It was a score paper, with lyrics written on it. MatsuJun immediately remembered the song. There was no way he could forget that song after all it was the first song he played with Haru. It was this song that convinced him to join her crazy band idea... "Haru... This..." He showed her the paper.
"Oh! That song... You have a good memory after all Jun-kun! Yup~ The one we played together~" She answered to him with a smile on her face, before returning to dig around the papers.
"These are all songs?" Ohno asked. His surprise could seen on his voice. Indeed, they were all songs. Some with just scores, some with just lyrics; with various genre, from slow to rock. The room was a pile of countless song sheets gathered and shut together... Before they could say anything, they heard Haru's victorious voice once again.
"I FOUND IT!!" She was holding two metal boxes superposed each other. Haru looked at them, with a sincere look on her face. "I will tell you guys everything, if you still want to hear after all that happened..." she said calmly but everyone knew that she was doing her best to speak without breaking.
First reaction came from Nino, "Aah! Finally we can learn somethings about our mysterious Haru," he said with a mischievous smile on his face. He grinned to Haru as her face relaxed a bit. It was the right timing to tell them everything after all...
A/N: This took me way too long T-T I hate myself too, sorry T-T
The song I used up there; m:a.ture - Perfect World
It's really a good song so I can totally recommend for anyone who wants to listen!
Length: multi-chapter
Pairing: Ninomiya Kazunari x Shimizu Haruka (OC)
Rating: G
Genre: AU / fluff / romance
Disclaimer: Unfortunately I do not own anything about Arashi. Only the plot is mine.
Disclaimer-2: I do not own none of the song nor lyrics that I use. The song is belongs to m:a.ture and I got the translation from the original video of Perfect World.
Summary: Ninomiya Kazunari 28 years old salary man who works for a big company. He is what normal means. He doesn't have many friends, he lives his life without any major changes. One day he met with a girl who is very irresponsible, selfish but loved by the god of music.
A/N: Comments are welcomed! English is not my native language so I apologize for my mistakes!!
Chapter 11 - Perfect World
Nino walked aimlessly as he thought about everything. He wasn't really sure about anything. He really had no idea about how to write a song... Most likely he only did it -actually tried it- once back in high school and it was such a failure that they decided to do a cover instead of a song of their own. He sighed tiredly, as he finally decided to head home.
That was also hard for him. He didn't know what to say to her, as well as he didn't want to see her tears. He raised his head up to the sky. The darkness was thick. It swallowed everything inside, silently and faithfully. He couldn't really remember when the last time he actually looked for stars was. Seeing the darkness made him realize once more, it was hard, heavy and dark for Haru. He stood there about a minute. His eyes, loitered over the weak lights which is very far away. They can't help it, he thought. Tokyo has too many lights.
But still some of the stars, continued to shine through the universe. This also, was something can be count as a miracle.
Nino smiled a little. Waiting for a miracle, won't make anything good, he thought calmly as he started to walk once again.
***
Watching Haru from afar, Nino held the pen in his hand strongly. The white paper in front of him looked as empty as his head. He didn't even have a melody inside of his head... He ruffled his hairs with irritation. As he left the pen and looked at Haru's sleeping face again. He wondered how she managed to hold herself together like that... He wondered everything about her but he couldn't dare to ask anymore after all happened. Staying near her when she needed most, he wanted to do that so badly. Maybe for the first time he knew how alone Haru was...
Nino never had many friends, thinking back, he changed his interests way too quickly when he was at high school. He wanted to be professional baseball player, but he wanted to form a band and left club because of it. That band only stayed together only about half of a year. And he started games. Games were probably the longest thing he had ever continued in his life. Comparing to Haru, he never had much passion about his life.
But still he had been blessed with good friends. Yes, minimal but sufficient. He had a good family which cared and support him always. Comparing to Haru, he knew he had much more pleasant memories with his family than Haru had.
He took the pen once again, writing nothing again, he looked blankly to the white paper. He took a deep breath as nothing came up to his mind. What would Haru do if she was in his place? He tried to figure out how she would write a song. A smile formed around his lips as he figured out her.
He remembered Haru's word about him back then. 'You know you are not as tough as Jun-kun or you are not really stoic as Sho-chan and it’s not really that hard to read you as Oh-chan'
I wonder what she saw in me, he thought. I wonder why it must be me...
He gave a deep breath again as he gave up from thinking. It's not like I would figure her out even if I think so hard.
Then he started to write, without thinking.
***
When Haru woke up finally, the sun was out once again. She felt really tired both mentally and physically. She turned around as a blanket fell to the floor. She blinked her eyes, so Nino returned, she thought. Somehow, she expected him to leave her alone. Like everyone do. Haru was used to being alone. She had many friends, so many that she couldn't even dare to count. But in deep down, she was lonely. It was merely because she never opened up herself really to anyone. She was that girl, who is really fun to be with. Her relationships never got deepened more than some specific things. Machizou-san and his son Shin-kun from the game center, old lady from the grocery shop, the children at the park, and such. Matsumoto, Aiba, Ohno, Sakurai and Ninomiya shouldn't have been different than them.
But right now, Haru didn't know how to face with them. She had no idea about how she should explain everything to them, or she had no courage to tell them everything. However, she still wanted to take that stage with them. She never desired something like this; she never wanted to stay together with someone.
She took a deep breath straightened up herself from Nino's sofa, not knowing how to handle everything. There was no way for her to know anyway. All she knew was running until now. She run away whenever things get hard for her, whenever she couldn't stand being there. That lead her a life without ever learning how to fight and with the same reason, she was now, confused.
She continued to look around her blankly until she finally realized Nino, sleeping on the desk in front of the sofa. Haru blinked her eyes for a few times, trying to figure out why did he slept there... Her eyes wandered around desk, seeing a scrawled paper in front of Nino.
Haru stood up from her place silently. Before she reached out for the paper, she covered Nino with the blanket that has fallen from her. She took the paper gently, realizing immediately that they were lyrics for a song. She breathed slowly, not letting herself to add a melody to it, and started to read it.
Our life goes by
In the blink of an eye
The clock is ticking away our time
Though there's justice in our hand
The future on our own
We get many decisions and choices
Sometimes you have to take a little grief
But the morning will come as we wait for the sun
Now as the lay of light sends its grace
Our fallow soul lies waiting
Once again
You're holding all the pain inside
In solitude tears hid beneath your heart never to be seen
Why don't you just forgive yourself
Through the lonely night on your own
As your feeble heart begins to break
I'll be there and have your back through all
The music attracts me through time
I've been singing for myself
It would always be somewhat personal
I can see it clear now
The further we went on our path together
The further we get our soul united
Thanks for meeting with me
Every song I compose is little piece of myself
But I'll treasure you more
Sorry
With all the words I onyl borrowed
I've been waiting for a miracle to come
So I thought you would accept me
Seems like the gift of love
Making me tender and sweet
I appericiate that you gave me some room to breathe
Somewhere in between the dreams unfulfilled
The future couldn't last
Things seem suddenly routine
With all the things we keep inside
Music drifts from heart to me
All of this I sing to you
You're holding all the pain inside
In solitude tears hid beneath your heart never to be seen
Why don't you just forgive yourself
Through the lonely night on your own
As your feeble heart begins to break
I'll be there and have your back through all
Haru, lay the paper to its place again silently,as she felt her tears fell from her eyes steadily once again. Though this time, it didn't hurt. She buried her face in her hands, closed her eyes tightly and tried to took a deep breath, then made her way out. Leaving Nino like that, she headed outside.
***
Nino felt drained as he left the building of his company late that evening. He felt deflected and angry at the same time. Waking up to an empty house like that, how can anyone blame him? He hated Haru's run aways. He hated that part of her with all his might.
He sighed laudly as he made his way to the studio, knowing that Haru won't be there to found. But at least, he thought, others will be there.
"Ninomiya-senpai~" He heard Araya Makiko, chirpping like some kind of bird. He inhaled a deep breath to hold himself from giving a curt answer.
"Araya-san, is there something wrong?" He asked trying his best to hide the twitch on his face.
"Ah..." she started with a cute blush on her face, "I was thinking if you would like to go out for a dinner now..."
"Sorry, Araya-san," Nino interrupted Makiko quickly. "I have things to do for today, so see you later," he said and hurried his way down to subway station, leaving her alone.
Makiko looked behind him with her mouth shaped like a little "o". She couldn't believe it. This was totally unacceptable! Leaving her like that when she was giving her all to look cuter than always just for him! She exhaled with indignation. Then she made her decision quickly as she started to follow him, before he reached out of her sight. If she needed to destroy that Shimizu girl more in order to get Ninomiya to herself, she would do it gladly.
Of course he didn't noticed her. He seemed to busy with his own thoughts when he took out a paper from his bag. Ninomiya's eyes wandered around the paper until it was his stop to get off. Her eyes, clouded with anger as she followed Ninomiya from afar. She followed him in Shibuya, when he passed all of the good places and made his way to more erratic places. The buildings changed into something more dubiously, as she continued to follow him. Why the hell is he coming all this shady place for her? For someone like her?!
Makiko watched him as he went inside an old building. It was a three floored building, all windows were closed tightly. Makiko gave a deep, irritated breath as she decided to leave for today. But she was determined to come back later.
***
When Nino went inside, he saw other members sitting and playing trupms together. They immediately stopped playin when they saw Nino.
"Oh, Nino-chan! You finally came!" Aiba said, standing up from his place and running towards to Nino. "What happened to Haru? Aren't you with her?"
"Nope, she left early this morning and she is not answering to her phone either," he said tiredly. "Have you guys heard from her?"
"Not at all... It was kind of awkward to call her after all..." Ohno said.
"That reminds me... What happened after I left?" Nino asked curiously.
Other four looked each other awkwardly and finally all eyes focused to MatsuJun. "What? Okay, I punched the big brother, so what!?" he asked crossing his arms in front of his chest. "Don't tell me he didn't deserved it," he narrowed his eyes. Nino laughed to him, and showed a thumbs up.
"I knew I could leave the punching work to you guys," he said, still laughing. Just then they heard a scream and a loud sound of something falling from upstairs. They looked at each other for a moment.
"Is there anyone living up there?" Sho asked curiously.
"I have no idea," said MatsuJun awkwardly.
"Let's go and check it," Ohno suggested as he started to walk to the back stairs.
"Wait a minute Oh-chan! What if it's a ghost?!" Aiba said whispering behind him.
"There's nothing like a ghost in the world Aiba-kun," Sho said but apperantly he was afraid too.
"Guys, we are here for a lot of time, it's not like this building is a hauted house or something like that," MatsuJun says firmly. He was trying to be cool after all. Nino didn't said anything and just followed Ohno behind. When they finally reached upstairs, they opened the door as they welcomed by a huge dust cloud. Dust, hit their face without warning and they started to caugh as Aiba hurried his way to find a window while stumbling over some boxes filled with some papers. When he finally find a window to open, fresh air and light filled the room and they were finally able to see what's inside of it.
It was a room filled with boxes all over the place and the boxes were filled with papers. There were two sofas and a big meeting table in it too though everything was covered with dust. Just then they heard Haru's voice.
"Someone help me!!" Haru called out under some boxes while only her hand was visible through the papers.
"EEEEH!?!?! HARU!??!" Aiba screamed as he saw her hands and runned to help her quickly as Ohno and Sho also joined to help.
"What the hell were you trying to do?!" Nino asked when they finally dig Haru under the papers. She was covered with grey dust from head to toe too.
She giggled though, "I was looking for something," then caughed. "I didn't thought this floor gathered dust this much..." She tried to shake the dust over her hairs. Nino sighed as he started to help her, getting rid of the dust.
"What were you looking for anyway?" MatsuJun asked curiously. Haru's face lit up suddenly remembering her purpose to get inside that room after a long time. "Good job!! I still haven't found it!" she said as she returned to messy papers looking for it.
MatsuJun sighed defeatedly. Then he started to look at the papers which covered all the room. "What are these?" he mumbled himself as he reached for a random one. It was a score paper, with lyrics written on it. MatsuJun immediately remembered the song. There was no way he could forget that song after all it was the first song he played with Haru. It was this song that convinced him to join her crazy band idea... "Haru... This..." He showed her the paper.
"Oh! That song... You have a good memory after all Jun-kun! Yup~ The one we played together~" She answered to him with a smile on her face, before returning to dig around the papers.
"These are all songs?" Ohno asked. His surprise could seen on his voice. Indeed, they were all songs. Some with just scores, some with just lyrics; with various genre, from slow to rock. The room was a pile of countless song sheets gathered and shut together... Before they could say anything, they heard Haru's victorious voice once again.
"I FOUND IT!!" She was holding two metal boxes superposed each other. Haru looked at them, with a sincere look on her face. "I will tell you guys everything, if you still want to hear after all that happened..." she said calmly but everyone knew that she was doing her best to speak without breaking.
First reaction came from Nino, "Aah! Finally we can learn somethings about our mysterious Haru," he said with a mischievous smile on his face. He grinned to Haru as her face relaxed a bit. It was the right timing to tell them everything after all...
A/N: This took me way too long T-T I hate myself too, sorry T-T
The song I used up there; m:a.ture - Perfect World
It's really a good song so I can totally recommend for anyone who wants to listen!
