[Fanfic] a created heart [06 / ??]
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mikunicchiTitle: a created heart
Pairing: Yama
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Fantasy, au, angts (kind of) magic, romance
Chaptered
Disclaimer: Unfortunately I do not own anything about Arashi. Only the plot is mine.
Summary: Is a monster with a created mind and heart was allowed to love a human? The monster knew it was impossible however the first moment he saw Sakurai Sho in that forest, he had no other choice to fall for his beautiful eyes.
As for Sho; his first encounter with him was a pure coincidence and falling for him was beyond his control.
A/N: Comments are very very welcomed! English is not my native language so I apologize for my mistakes in advance! I am deeply sorry! m(_ _)m
For decades the monster had thought that his eternal life was nothing but a curse. Reminding himself every single moment that he was a created life form only for the purpose of making The Witch happy. He didn’t have any other meaning, he didn’t have any other things. A created heart which contained nothing but The Witch’s hatred towards humans.
However, when the monster saved a little boy in the forest on that day, he strangely felt like his time was moving again. It was nothing like the feelings he had for The Witch, it was nothing like he had felt until now. It was as if he had another purpose of living in that world. As if, someone still needed him even after The Witch’s death.
But was that really possible? He was helping another human being, who rejected him like they did to The Witch. But then again, it didn’t matter to the monster at all… He was a failure for his creator after all. He was created to hate humans, yet he yearned to become one of them. A monster who can’t fulfill his purpose of existing. So the monster never felt regretful for saving the little boy with big brown eyes. To his surprise, the monster had never met a human who is this different. The boy was nothing like he had known. His eyes were shining deeply, his smile was the warmest thing the monster had ever seen in his long life.
The boy reminded him of his creator, yet he was different.
He was dear, yet that scared the monster.
His voice crushed his silence as if the monster was living for hearing that voice for this whole time. The monster felt strange, also scared….
That was the first time that the monster felt lost.
***
Sho stretched as he pushed his chair back a little. Small wheels of his office chair, made a weird sound in the empty office and he groaned a little feeling the protest of his muscles. He looked at the clock which was ticking lazily. 01:35
Wow, he thought. It surely took me a lot to finish everything. “I should go back to sleep. So that I can leave tomorrow early,” he mumbled.
So that I can see Satoshi, he thought with a soft smile on his face. It has been a day since he last saw him but he already missed him before he could even realize. There was no need to deny that he actually harbored feelings for Satoshi though he didn't quite agree with Nino either. It wasn't like he was crazily in love with him but he had a very strong urge to see him, speak to him. Especially after he found out the meaning of forget-me-not.
Back in his mind, he knew something was terribly wrong with Satoshi. Something which is beyond Sho’s understanding. The way Satoshi hasn't changed even after 26 years and the way he saved Sho from the dead tree which didn't seem weird to a 10-year-old boy felt horribly wrong to the grown-up Sho. However, even that didn't stop the urge to see Satoshi. He didn't know why, but only seeing him once again mattered to Sho. I can ask him, when I saw him, he thought. The thought of seeing him simply made Sho’s smile widen.
That was when Sho smelled a burned scent. He frowned and stood up from his chair to see what's happening out of the office. He stood up from his place and opened the main door of the office just to see the wild, hot, red flames already rising to the ceiling. A heavy smoke hit his face harshly making him cough.
His first instinct was closing the door while still coughing. What should I do? He thought with panic rising in his body. Fire department! He thought running towards his desk to get his phone. He hurriedly tried to find his phone under the pile of papers. “Where is it, where is it?!” he mumbled with panic. But when he found his phone, he saw it is already out of power. “Damn it!” he cursed and threw his phone on the desk unceremoniously. “Fire alarm! It should contact the fire department…” he thought, relaxing a little bit only to realize that the alarm never went off. Sho’s eyes widened with fear. He was trapped in the building, probably alone and no one had any idea about the fire in the building. He was all alone in the building, in the fire. “Think about it, think about it, Sho! You are supposed to be smart!” he forced his brain to work. “Fire escape!” he remembered suddenly, but it was at the opposite end of the hallway. There was no way for him to pass the fire to the fire exit… He looked around him. The dark smoke leaking under the door and quickly filling the room with carbon dioxide. Sho coughed again. Every breath he is taking becoming hard.
“What should I do? What should I do?” he voices hysterically. But apparently, his brain stopped working when the ferocious flames started to eat the wooden door, swiftly making its way to Sho.
Smoke. Fire. Hot.
This was all he could think of as the fire cut his escape and banned him from doing anything. Sho coughed as he couldn’t stand breathing the smoke.
Smoke. Fire. Hot. I need to run.
It was hot and slowly he was losing his mind. He had to find an escape, however, every way was blocked as he tried to think. He was panicking as the wildfire attacked every corner making Sho back away to the wall. He coughed again. Breathing was getting harder with every second.
Smoke. Fire. Hot. I am scared.
Somehow he could faintly hear the voice of siren of fire-fighters. With a sudden idea, Sho tried to open the window with the need for oxygen. He tugged the window handle desperately trying to open them up. However, it didn't work as the window stayed stable like there's no way to open it.
He hoisted the closest chair and tried to broke the window but he already started to feel dizzy with all the smoke and fire around him.
Smoke. Fire. Hot… Satoshi!
He slid onto floor feeling his strength leaving his body, I don't want to die without seeing you. I don't want to die before I reach you…
Satoshi, Satoshi!
His mind was screaming his name. Sho coughed wildly, breathing was impossible anymore as the atrocious flames cornered him. “Satoshi,” he whispered lastly feeling his consciousness slipping away. He felt like he heard Satoshi’s voice from far away.
***
It was fast. Even the monster who had seen the sumptuous days of The Witch was surprised how fast the fire grew. The monster was aware that it wasn't a normal fire, he knew this barbaric flames had been created by the wrath of The Witch… There was no way to stop this flames from moving to kill Sho… A hard knot of feelings locked in his throat. He tried to swallow the emotions, failing. This was his fault… Because he failed to realize that Sho might come to find him. He has failed to keep him safe! But he was not going to give up that easily. He went inside the building hurriedly, without being seen by anyone else.
It was hot, but it didn’t matter to the monster.
“I won't let you steal his life,” he said determinedly. The flames roared as if answering to his statement. The monster stepped into the fire, not even thinking further. He was perfectly aware that he was completely moving against his creator’s will. He was perfectly aware of it and he was determined to do so even if it leads him to his death. “I don't care, I have lived like you wanted me until now. I am your puppet, you can do anything you want to do to me but I won't let you kill him.” He said strongly. Even he didn’t know that he had that kind of strength.
The cursed flames roared one more time attacking the monster and creating a wall in front of him just to prevent him from going further. He thought could hear his creator’s voice for a moment: I gave you a life. You are mine. You have let me kill anyone I wanted. You can’t oppose my will. The remainings of The Witch's wrath was speaking to him through the hot flames.
“That's right,” the monster said not even flinching because of the pain. “I have watched you kill a lot, I have let you kill a lot, but not this time. You can not kill Sho.” He continued his way, feeling the burning pain on his skin. He didn't stop, he hurried to the fifth floor to find Sho, to save him.
When he finally reached the fifth floor, he wasn't surprised that the flames were stronger here. He knew that The Witch’s target was Sho. I won't let you take him away from me, was the only thought in his mind as he made his way inside the flames. He was created perfectly. Undying, strong and fast. Knowing that fact is only an advantage for him. He didn't care the pain, he just cared about Sho. He just cared about saving him. He searched every corner of the fifth floor, slightly panicking every time that he couldn't find Sho. “Sho… Sho… Sho…” he mumbled his name finally turning a corner and going into the last room he saw Sho lying on the ground. He ran towards him quickly taking him into his arms. Sho was taller than him but that didn't matter to the monster who is stronger than anyone. He lifted Sho in his arms, covering his body with his own slim body as much as he could. He pressed Sho’s body to himself, securing him and shield him from the flames with his own body.
The flames roared once again. “I won't let you take him!” the monster shouted, the flames stopped moving for a moment as if surprised with the monster’s sudden defy and strength.
The monster held Sho close to his body, hurrying to the exit. Very grateful for his speed which is very much above of the normal human speed. He needed to leave that building as soon as possible. Before The Witch could attack them again. However, the flames which seemed baffled for a moment suddenly roared with rage, just as they reached the exit. The monster felt a horrible pain in his back but even that didn't stop him from moving. The moment he set his step out of the building with Sho in his arms, the fifth floor exploded. The monster guarded Sho’s body with his.
I won't let you take him. I will never.
***
Jun couldn’t see his surroundings because of the tears that keep falling from his eyes. He screamed, tried to escape from the fire-fighters firm grip, failing every time. He could faintly hear that Nino was also shouting like him. The explosion made a lot of glass fly and fire-fighters guarded them both. However, Jun was not even in the shape to think other things.
A horrible, ruthless feeling formed inside of his chest. Guilt.
He had been trained to protect his friends from disasters. But at that very moment, he failed to protect Sho. Even when he knew something might happen to him… He couldn’t protect him.
“Someone came out!!”
Suddenly those words made their way to Jun’s ears. Jun looked up immediately to see what’s happening. Apparently, a miracle had happened and someone just came out before the explosion. Jun swiftly escaped from the sturdy grip of the fire-fighters and run towards the survivors. “SHO!” He shouted at the top of his lungs, immediately recognizing his friend who was hugged safely by someone else. Someone who had injured terribly. That someone looked up as soon as he heard Jun’s voice. The monster! Jun thought bewilderedly. His eyes widened with surprise but he only stopped when he reached them.
“You-” Jun started but the monster cut him.
“Please, I beg of you,” he started still hugging Sho tightly. “I beg of you,” he repeated. “Please, keep him safe.” The monster was trembling. “I… I can’t let her kill him…” he stammered. “Promise me,” he looked straightly to Jun’s eyes. “Promise me that you will keep him safe.”
Jun was speechless. He could see the gleaming tears in the monster’s eyes. The monster which is created by The Witch had nothing but hatred inside of him, the story echoed inside Jun’s head. It was not human, it only had a created heart with only hatred in it. It was merciless, caring nothing but The Witch’s orders. It was a puppet to kill humans. It was a puppet to satisfy The Witch. It would never oppose its master.
You are nothing like they had said, Jun thought. You are not a monster. A bitter feeling invading his heart. “I will,” Jun said reassuringly. “I promise I will keep him safe,” he repeated.
Satoshi seemed relieved, dropping the firm grip on Sho’s body. He looked at the Sho’s face which is stained with dark smoke. They could hear fire-fighters and the medics shout. Satoshi let Sho’s body lie to the ground gently as if he is holding the most fragile flower in the Earth. Jun watched him as a crowd of medics surrounding them. They put an oxygen mask to Sho while they shouted for more supplies for Satoshi, however, Satoshi didn’t let them touch him. He leaned forward and kissed Sho’s forehead tenderly. “Keep him safe,” he said one last time, not looking at Jun, then he disappeared into the night. Jun felt his tears washing his face as he could do nothing but watch the empty space where Satoshi was standing a few seconds ago.
I will find a way, Jun thought determinedly. I promise I will find a way…
A/N: I did my best to be quick! lol my updating schecule is a mess, sorry for that everyone m(_ _)m hope everyone enjoys this one too!
Pairing: Yama
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Fantasy, au, angts (kind of) magic, romance
Chaptered
Disclaimer: Unfortunately I do not own anything about Arashi. Only the plot is mine.
Summary: Is a monster with a created mind and heart was allowed to love a human? The monster knew it was impossible however the first moment he saw Sakurai Sho in that forest, he had no other choice to fall for his beautiful eyes.
As for Sho; his first encounter with him was a pure coincidence and falling for him was beyond his control.
A/N: Comments are very very welcomed! English is not my native language so I apologize for my mistakes in advance! I am deeply sorry! m(_ _)m
For decades the monster had thought that his eternal life was nothing but a curse. Reminding himself every single moment that he was a created life form only for the purpose of making The Witch happy. He didn’t have any other meaning, he didn’t have any other things. A created heart which contained nothing but The Witch’s hatred towards humans.
However, when the monster saved a little boy in the forest on that day, he strangely felt like his time was moving again. It was nothing like the feelings he had for The Witch, it was nothing like he had felt until now. It was as if he had another purpose of living in that world. As if, someone still needed him even after The Witch’s death.
But was that really possible? He was helping another human being, who rejected him like they did to The Witch. But then again, it didn’t matter to the monster at all… He was a failure for his creator after all. He was created to hate humans, yet he yearned to become one of them. A monster who can’t fulfill his purpose of existing. So the monster never felt regretful for saving the little boy with big brown eyes. To his surprise, the monster had never met a human who is this different. The boy was nothing like he had known. His eyes were shining deeply, his smile was the warmest thing the monster had ever seen in his long life.
The boy reminded him of his creator, yet he was different.
He was dear, yet that scared the monster.
His voice crushed his silence as if the monster was living for hearing that voice for this whole time. The monster felt strange, also scared….
That was the first time that the monster felt lost.
***
Sho stretched as he pushed his chair back a little. Small wheels of his office chair, made a weird sound in the empty office and he groaned a little feeling the protest of his muscles. He looked at the clock which was ticking lazily. 01:35
Wow, he thought. It surely took me a lot to finish everything. “I should go back to sleep. So that I can leave tomorrow early,” he mumbled.
So that I can see Satoshi, he thought with a soft smile on his face. It has been a day since he last saw him but he already missed him before he could even realize. There was no need to deny that he actually harbored feelings for Satoshi though he didn't quite agree with Nino either. It wasn't like he was crazily in love with him but he had a very strong urge to see him, speak to him. Especially after he found out the meaning of forget-me-not.
Back in his mind, he knew something was terribly wrong with Satoshi. Something which is beyond Sho’s understanding. The way Satoshi hasn't changed even after 26 years and the way he saved Sho from the dead tree which didn't seem weird to a 10-year-old boy felt horribly wrong to the grown-up Sho. However, even that didn't stop the urge to see Satoshi. He didn't know why, but only seeing him once again mattered to Sho. I can ask him, when I saw him, he thought. The thought of seeing him simply made Sho’s smile widen.
That was when Sho smelled a burned scent. He frowned and stood up from his chair to see what's happening out of the office. He stood up from his place and opened the main door of the office just to see the wild, hot, red flames already rising to the ceiling. A heavy smoke hit his face harshly making him cough.
His first instinct was closing the door while still coughing. What should I do? He thought with panic rising in his body. Fire department! He thought running towards his desk to get his phone. He hurriedly tried to find his phone under the pile of papers. “Where is it, where is it?!” he mumbled with panic. But when he found his phone, he saw it is already out of power. “Damn it!” he cursed and threw his phone on the desk unceremoniously. “Fire alarm! It should contact the fire department…” he thought, relaxing a little bit only to realize that the alarm never went off. Sho’s eyes widened with fear. He was trapped in the building, probably alone and no one had any idea about the fire in the building. He was all alone in the building, in the fire. “Think about it, think about it, Sho! You are supposed to be smart!” he forced his brain to work. “Fire escape!” he remembered suddenly, but it was at the opposite end of the hallway. There was no way for him to pass the fire to the fire exit… He looked around him. The dark smoke leaking under the door and quickly filling the room with carbon dioxide. Sho coughed again. Every breath he is taking becoming hard.
“What should I do? What should I do?” he voices hysterically. But apparently, his brain stopped working when the ferocious flames started to eat the wooden door, swiftly making its way to Sho.
Smoke. Fire. Hot.
This was all he could think of as the fire cut his escape and banned him from doing anything. Sho coughed as he couldn’t stand breathing the smoke.
Smoke. Fire. Hot. I need to run.
It was hot and slowly he was losing his mind. He had to find an escape, however, every way was blocked as he tried to think. He was panicking as the wildfire attacked every corner making Sho back away to the wall. He coughed again. Breathing was getting harder with every second.
Smoke. Fire. Hot. I am scared.
Somehow he could faintly hear the voice of siren of fire-fighters. With a sudden idea, Sho tried to open the window with the need for oxygen. He tugged the window handle desperately trying to open them up. However, it didn't work as the window stayed stable like there's no way to open it.
He hoisted the closest chair and tried to broke the window but he already started to feel dizzy with all the smoke and fire around him.
Smoke. Fire. Hot… Satoshi!
He slid onto floor feeling his strength leaving his body, I don't want to die without seeing you. I don't want to die before I reach you…
Satoshi, Satoshi!
His mind was screaming his name. Sho coughed wildly, breathing was impossible anymore as the atrocious flames cornered him. “Satoshi,” he whispered lastly feeling his consciousness slipping away. He felt like he heard Satoshi’s voice from far away.
***
It was fast. Even the monster who had seen the sumptuous days of The Witch was surprised how fast the fire grew. The monster was aware that it wasn't a normal fire, he knew this barbaric flames had been created by the wrath of The Witch… There was no way to stop this flames from moving to kill Sho… A hard knot of feelings locked in his throat. He tried to swallow the emotions, failing. This was his fault… Because he failed to realize that Sho might come to find him. He has failed to keep him safe! But he was not going to give up that easily. He went inside the building hurriedly, without being seen by anyone else.
It was hot, but it didn’t matter to the monster.
“I won't let you steal his life,” he said determinedly. The flames roared as if answering to his statement. The monster stepped into the fire, not even thinking further. He was perfectly aware that he was completely moving against his creator’s will. He was perfectly aware of it and he was determined to do so even if it leads him to his death. “I don't care, I have lived like you wanted me until now. I am your puppet, you can do anything you want to do to me but I won't let you kill him.” He said strongly. Even he didn’t know that he had that kind of strength.
The cursed flames roared one more time attacking the monster and creating a wall in front of him just to prevent him from going further. He thought could hear his creator’s voice for a moment: I gave you a life. You are mine. You have let me kill anyone I wanted. You can’t oppose my will. The remainings of The Witch's wrath was speaking to him through the hot flames.
“That's right,” the monster said not even flinching because of the pain. “I have watched you kill a lot, I have let you kill a lot, but not this time. You can not kill Sho.” He continued his way, feeling the burning pain on his skin. He didn't stop, he hurried to the fifth floor to find Sho, to save him.
When he finally reached the fifth floor, he wasn't surprised that the flames were stronger here. He knew that The Witch’s target was Sho. I won't let you take him away from me, was the only thought in his mind as he made his way inside the flames. He was created perfectly. Undying, strong and fast. Knowing that fact is only an advantage for him. He didn't care the pain, he just cared about Sho. He just cared about saving him. He searched every corner of the fifth floor, slightly panicking every time that he couldn't find Sho. “Sho… Sho… Sho…” he mumbled his name finally turning a corner and going into the last room he saw Sho lying on the ground. He ran towards him quickly taking him into his arms. Sho was taller than him but that didn't matter to the monster who is stronger than anyone. He lifted Sho in his arms, covering his body with his own slim body as much as he could. He pressed Sho’s body to himself, securing him and shield him from the flames with his own body.
The flames roared once again. “I won't let you take him!” the monster shouted, the flames stopped moving for a moment as if surprised with the monster’s sudden defy and strength.
The monster held Sho close to his body, hurrying to the exit. Very grateful for his speed which is very much above of the normal human speed. He needed to leave that building as soon as possible. Before The Witch could attack them again. However, the flames which seemed baffled for a moment suddenly roared with rage, just as they reached the exit. The monster felt a horrible pain in his back but even that didn't stop him from moving. The moment he set his step out of the building with Sho in his arms, the fifth floor exploded. The monster guarded Sho’s body with his.
I won't let you take him. I will never.
***
Jun couldn’t see his surroundings because of the tears that keep falling from his eyes. He screamed, tried to escape from the fire-fighters firm grip, failing every time. He could faintly hear that Nino was also shouting like him. The explosion made a lot of glass fly and fire-fighters guarded them both. However, Jun was not even in the shape to think other things.
A horrible, ruthless feeling formed inside of his chest. Guilt.
He had been trained to protect his friends from disasters. But at that very moment, he failed to protect Sho. Even when he knew something might happen to him… He couldn’t protect him.
“Someone came out!!”
Suddenly those words made their way to Jun’s ears. Jun looked up immediately to see what’s happening. Apparently, a miracle had happened and someone just came out before the explosion. Jun swiftly escaped from the sturdy grip of the fire-fighters and run towards the survivors. “SHO!” He shouted at the top of his lungs, immediately recognizing his friend who was hugged safely by someone else. Someone who had injured terribly. That someone looked up as soon as he heard Jun’s voice. The monster! Jun thought bewilderedly. His eyes widened with surprise but he only stopped when he reached them.
“You-” Jun started but the monster cut him.
“Please, I beg of you,” he started still hugging Sho tightly. “I beg of you,” he repeated. “Please, keep him safe.” The monster was trembling. “I… I can’t let her kill him…” he stammered. “Promise me,” he looked straightly to Jun’s eyes. “Promise me that you will keep him safe.”
Jun was speechless. He could see the gleaming tears in the monster’s eyes. The monster which is created by The Witch had nothing but hatred inside of him, the story echoed inside Jun’s head. It was not human, it only had a created heart with only hatred in it. It was merciless, caring nothing but The Witch’s orders. It was a puppet to kill humans. It was a puppet to satisfy The Witch. It would never oppose its master.
You are nothing like they had said, Jun thought. You are not a monster. A bitter feeling invading his heart. “I will,” Jun said reassuringly. “I promise I will keep him safe,” he repeated.
Satoshi seemed relieved, dropping the firm grip on Sho’s body. He looked at the Sho’s face which is stained with dark smoke. They could hear fire-fighters and the medics shout. Satoshi let Sho’s body lie to the ground gently as if he is holding the most fragile flower in the Earth. Jun watched him as a crowd of medics surrounding them. They put an oxygen mask to Sho while they shouted for more supplies for Satoshi, however, Satoshi didn’t let them touch him. He leaned forward and kissed Sho’s forehead tenderly. “Keep him safe,” he said one last time, not looking at Jun, then he disappeared into the night. Jun felt his tears washing his face as he could do nothing but watch the empty space where Satoshi was standing a few seconds ago.
I will find a way, Jun thought determinedly. I promise I will find a way…
A/N: I did my best to be quick! lol my updating schecule is a mess, sorry for that everyone m(_ _)m hope everyone enjoys this one too!
