The useless things on my life! vol.4

[mikunicchi]

This is personal as hell but I don’t have anywhere to write it. Somehow I got really emotional so I will just write it here.

This is about a girl who is really really bad at making friends. She always got hated from her friends and have always been ‘the forgotten one’. She always thinks that somethings wrong with her and how hard she tries she still can’t get a friend for a very very very long time. Her time in high school were always alone and her parents always been worried about her. So when she got accepted to a university which is very far away from her parents, she decided to make friend no matter what happens. She never talked anyone about what she liked or anything like that at all. She tried her best following the popular songs on that day, she even watched stupid tv programs but in the end she still become ‘the forgotten one’
She was hurt as hell and she knew no one cared it even a bit. She tried to talk someone but no one listened her. Lastly she gave up from everything. Her dreams and her future. Everyday was a hell to live. Every damn school day was killing her little by little.
But then she suddenly find a way to get out of this hell.
There was a group named Arashi, formed with five members. They were sparkling and though she couldn’t tell why they were really warm to her. Through the video and through the songs they told her everything is okay. For the first time in her life they told her “it’s okay to be yourself”
And for the first time in my life I thought “It’s really okay to be myself” This is my story which Arashi helped me to create. And still I have no one to tell this I write it here.

I know they will never know about me but thank you guys, for saving my life. I can not make my gratefulness to words. I am grateful to Arashi saving my life…