The useless things on my life! vol.11
Nov. 27th, 2017 09:51 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mikunicchiOh yey, here I am.
I am gonna talk a little bit so please just skip this post
The hellish exam period is over for now. I mean for now because I will have final exams and such and I am definitely not looking forward for it. The thing is, I was overwhelmed by everything. This is kind of a war and I don't really find myself strong enough to continue to be honest. My brain is literally fried (well I took 18 exams in 2 weeks, including the weekends so I am actually surprised I can still write something in English and such) But I have made some things clear in myself. I don't know how to explain this but I am gonna try;
When I first started to think about being a teacher, it was such a beautiful and a good job inside me. I mean I haven't thought anything deep about it, since teachers were existed as a matter of fact and I always thought it would be good to become a teacher; to help children like me. (well you see I am very very troublesome person and I hated to be in school and I didn't had any friends and such; blame the puberty but those teacher of mine helped me a lot to get into things, she taught me the joy of writing and such so why not become a teacher like her)
And like this and that I made it to a university, I came to know what it is like to be a teacher and to be honest, I was scared. So scared.
How can I say... I am not someone who is that strong, who can bear someone's life. The question; "could I manage to do it?" appared to my mind and started to eat me. "Is it even possible for me? Am I that brave? Am I that strong? Do I even have that resolution?" and such.
But finally I know I can. The first time I got to be able to touch some of those students, it was the most awesome thing I have ever felt. And my first students was a class which my supervisor teacher told me "they don't listen, I don't recommend you to teach them, they are hopeless"
However, they listened. They were even interested in the subject even though they were math class. (my major degree is from literature) Their eyes shined and I know they found it interesting (because I know literature is an amazing and interesting thing)
The thing is; I don't want to give up from those students. They don't have to be in love with literature, they don't have to be perfect in exams, they don't have to believe that they have to learn literature but I want to show them literature can be an amazig thing. And from my point of view; literature can change people's life, even for a bit.
And so with that, I realized this is what I live for, what I want to live for.
#me being such an troublesome person again
I am gonna talk a little bit so please just skip this post
The hellish exam period is over for now. I mean for now because I will have final exams and such and I am definitely not looking forward for it. The thing is, I was overwhelmed by everything. This is kind of a war and I don't really find myself strong enough to continue to be honest. My brain is literally fried (well I took 18 exams in 2 weeks, including the weekends so I am actually surprised I can still write something in English and such) But I have made some things clear in myself. I don't know how to explain this but I am gonna try;
When I first started to think about being a teacher, it was such a beautiful and a good job inside me. I mean I haven't thought anything deep about it, since teachers were existed as a matter of fact and I always thought it would be good to become a teacher; to help children like me. (well you see I am very very troublesome person and I hated to be in school and I didn't had any friends and such; blame the puberty but those teacher of mine helped me a lot to get into things, she taught me the joy of writing and such so why not become a teacher like her)
And like this and that I made it to a university, I came to know what it is like to be a teacher and to be honest, I was scared. So scared.
How can I say... I am not someone who is that strong, who can bear someone's life. The question; "could I manage to do it?" appared to my mind and started to eat me. "Is it even possible for me? Am I that brave? Am I that strong? Do I even have that resolution?" and such.
But finally I know I can. The first time I got to be able to touch some of those students, it was the most awesome thing I have ever felt. And my first students was a class which my supervisor teacher told me "they don't listen, I don't recommend you to teach them, they are hopeless"
However, they listened. They were even interested in the subject even though they were math class. (my major degree is from literature) Their eyes shined and I know they found it interesting (because I know literature is an amazing and interesting thing)
The thing is; I don't want to give up from those students. They don't have to be in love with literature, they don't have to be perfect in exams, they don't have to believe that they have to learn literature but I want to show them literature can be an amazig thing. And from my point of view; literature can change people's life, even for a bit.
And so with that, I realized this is what I live for, what I want to live for.
#me being such an troublesome person again
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