[Fanfic] a created heart [02 / ??]
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mikunicchiTitle: a created heart
Pairing: Yama
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Fantasy, au, angts (kind of) magic, romance
Chaptered
Disclaimer: Unfortunately I do not own anything about Arashi. Only the plot is mine.
Summary: Is a monster with a created mind and heart was allowed to love a human? The monster knew it was impossible however the first moment he saw Sakurai Sho in that forest, he had no other choice to fall for his beautiful eyes.
As for Sho; his first encounter with him was a pure coincidence and falling for him was beyond his control.
A/N: Comments are very very welcomed! English is not my native language so I apologize for my mistakes in advance! I am deeply sorry! m(_ _)m
The monster understood everything perfectly. Everything including that he is a created life for the purpose of staying with his creator, that he was a marionette in his owner's hands... That’s why the monster always stayed quiet. He listened The Witch, he answered The Witch, he stayed with The Witch.
One day, his creator allowed him to ask one thing from her. Because she simply wanted to grant one wish for her docile monster.
The monster though, didn’t have anything to wish from his creator. Because he wasn’t a human; so were there a meaning to wish for anything that will disappear soon? The monster looked at the ground. He wanted to grant his creator’s wish; because she wanted him to ask something from her. Because he was created to grant her wishes. That's why he did his best. He tried to find something to please her but the only thing he could think of was nothing but a simple desire. A desire which he wasn't allowed to feel at all… “Then can you give me a name?” The monster asked. A name, would be good. A name was what he wished for all this time. He looked at The Witch’s eyes. Something moved inside him, something funny. Filling his created heart with a sweet warmness.
That was the first time that the monster felt hopeful.
***
Sho was walking behind the adventurer as he lead the way. Which was actually a good thing because now that he wasn't facing with this mysterious man, Sho realized he could think straight. It was funny how this man made Sho speechless for a moment. And it was certainly funny that how this man erased the fire of Sho’s anger and his never ending love for his work, just by being close to him. Sho haven't even tried to check his phone as he walked after the adventurer which was quite weird for the workaholic Sakurai Sho. Sho would check his phone even if he were to be in the middle of hell. But he couldn't think anything other than observing closely this mysterious man.
The man was short. At least he was shorter than Sho. And he looked really slim. The sleepy look he had on his face could be mocked easily however his eyes burned with a certain intensity. His bright eyes looked like he could see anything and everything and the way he averted his gaze told nothing to Sho. But Sho knew that nothings were what hide everything.
“You are inattentive,” He heard suddenly the man’s voice which caused Sho to stop his step in the air.
“What?” He asked somehow stupidly. Did he just insulted him?
“I said you are inattentive,” the man repeated himself not even turning to look at Sho. “You are about to smash a rabbit nest.” He said this time eyeing him a little.
“Oh,” Sho looked in front of him just to see a rabbit hole a few centimeters away from his feet. He blinked a few times.
“That’s why I don’t like campers,” the man mumbled calmly, turning his gaze to the way he was walking.
“Excuse me?” Sho frowned. Okay, he might be at fault because he wasn’t looking where he was going but this didn’t mean that this man could insult him as he pleased. “And you are quite arrogant despite your laid back looks,” Sho said sharply while narrowing his eyes as if he could pierce through the man’s back.
But the man take the wrong decision and he simply said, “Thank you,” to Sho’s wry words.
“I am not praising you,” Sho said this time more angrily.
“Yeah, whatever,” the man continued walking. One thing bothered Sho more than anything: The man didn’t face him even once.
“And you are rude, aren’t you?” Sho said as his anger made him forget that his mind was actually full of this man for a moment.
“So what?” The man said; again, not turning around to face Sho.
This time, angry Sho take action as he closed the distance between them with a fast move. At least he thought like that.
Before Sho can reach the man, the man caught his wrist and captured him between a big tree’s body and himself swiftly. Sho let out a soundless gasp, suddenly finding himself really close to the man. His hold in his wrist was soft but his eyes shone with a different light. “Never attack someone from behind,” the man said calmly. His voice harboured different emotions which Sho wasn’t capable of defining every one of them. Sho tried to take a deep breath as his heart beat fastened with the sudden closeness. His touch on Sho’s arm was warm; warm enough to cause an electricity run through Sho’s skin more intensely than before he walked past him. Sho felt like he was taken into a whirlpool which was in the man’s eyes. Once again, he felt like all his anger sucked by the man. He felt vulnerable. He felt vulnerable towards a total stranger. As if he was drawn him by some kind of magic, he was feeling naked in front of those bright eyes.
The man, broke their contact first, like before. “I am sorry,” he mumbled almost inaudible. Why? Sho thought. He didn’t really know what or whom to that question directed but that was the only thing echoed his mind. He really wanted to know why.
Why did he apologized? Why did he avert his gaze from me again? Why he never dares to look at me? Why did he sound that lonesome? Why did he looked that scared? Why do I care? Why do I want want him to continue to touch me? Why did his touch felt that warm, that familiar against my skin? Why?!
But he couldn’t ask any of those questions. He found himself facing with the back of the mysterious man once again as if nothing had happened. Before he could say anything the man, “Let’s get going, it will be dark,” said masking his emotions under a calm voice.
He doesn’t remember me, the monster thought simply. He could do nothing about that fact. The monster has lived through many centuries and thanks to his creator he also had a good memory, but never once in his whole life, he felt this powerless towards anything. Never once in his life, the monster felt confused this much and this tortured at the same time. He was torn between the desire to hug the man who was walking behind him and wanting to let him go.
The monster, felt as if his whole being was breaking into many pieces. He was used to pain. And also being lonely. Even the burning feeling of betrayal was better than this. The man who was walking behind him was torturing him. He felt as if that man was holding the strings of his being.
***
“Are you alright?” The monster asked the little boy who was looking at him with an amazed gaze while the monster held the dead tree with one hand from falling onto the little boy. The monster felt like he was trapped in those well shaped, bright eyes.
And the little boy smiled.
That was the best smile the monster had ever seen in his long life, making his created heart jump from its place. It felt too good to be true, too beautiful to be exist. Too magical to be in front of his eyes.
He wasn’t allowed to feel like this. The monster knew it perfectly, however his heart didn’t want to accept it once their hands touched. The monster felt powerless, and he also felt stronger as if he could fight with the world which denied his presence, for him. For that beautiful smile, for those bright eyes.
***
He smiled bitterly trusting the fact that the man walking behind him couldn’t see any of his expressions. The monster knew that even if Sho didn’t remember anything, he would still be sad seeing this lonely expression of his. Because he was Sho; because he was the one and only person that let the monster belong somewhere. Even though he had forgotten about it, there was no way for the monster to forget. The monster tried to swallow the tears that started to build in his eyes. Tears were something he discovered after many years of his creation. He was a monster, without any humanly feelings; yet it seemed like he could shed tears like a human. Ironic. A monster who was shedding tears for a human…
The monster didn't know what to do. Were there any way to stop this feelings? Were there any way to make him remember the monster? No, the monster thought firmly. It's better like this. I am a monster. I am not allowed to feel like this towards you.
Their walk went quietly. The monster was aware that Sho was feeling confused as he avoided any talk between them. He quietly lead the way he camping area while his only desire was to reach his hand and touch Sho’s soft cheeks. It was stupid, the monster knew it very well. Yet he still wanted.
Once they reached the path which was made with human hands when that camping are was building, he stopped. The monster remembered the day when that camping are was building. He remembered that he felt trapped at that time. However he stopped hating that camping are when it brought Sho to him as a lost little boy.
“Here,” the monster said not looking at him. “If you follow this path, you will reach the camping area.”
Sho, didn’t say anything. The monster looked at him with the corner of his eye; Sho was looking at the ground. The monster smiled sadly and before he could stop himself, he said; “Don’t wander around too much, the woods are still dangerous.”
Sho looked at him suddenly as if he was shot by some kind of lightning. “What did you said?” He asked baffled. His eyes got bigger as he tried to catch the monsters eyes. “How did you know that? What is your name? Who are you?” Sho asked.
But before he could get any answers, the monster disappeared from his sight. As if he wasn’t there from the very beginning.
***
The very first time the monster met Sho was when he was little. It was a two weeks long summer camp. Since his parents were too busy to have him at home in the summer holiday, they had sent him to that summer camp, at least that was what Sho told him. It was the first day of his camp when Sho rebelliously wanted to flee from the camping area. The boy, lost his way in the middle of forest and compared to present time, the woods were thicker.
A rain storm was nearing when the monster found the boy in the forest. He was wandering around with a scared gaze and the monster watched him closely from a safe distance. The monster was scared of humans, or more likely he was scared of them knowing the fact that he is a monster. However when the wild wind made a dead tree fall over to the spot where the boy was standing, his body moved before his mind. He stopped the tree, and looked at the little boy in front of him; feeling his heart beat once again after many years. There was no way he could forget that day which was scraped to his whole existence.
After that first encounter, Sho seemed like he acknowledged the monster as a friend. He keep coming to the forest as if he was seeking the accompany of the monster. And for the monster; the little Sho was cute, and he was also hurt deep inside; like the monster. Little by little the monster felt that Sho’s presence was becoming dear to him. Which was strange and very agonizing… But he couldn’t resist the power of Sho’s being which draw the monster to little boy.
On their third meet, Sho asked him a question. “How long are you trying to keep your name as a secret?”
The monster felt confused. Because simply, he didn’t had any name. The Witch never gave him a name, which he desired for too much. The monster sadly averted his eyes from Sho’s beautiful gaze. “Monster. Call me like that.”
The monster could feel Sho’s confusion even without looking at him. “But you aren’t a monster…” he said calmly. “How come you don’t have any name? Were your parents also too busy for you?”
“No… It’s not like that…” The monster muttered. He didn’t know how to explain it to the little boy.
“Hmm… Calling you as Monster doesn’t feel right. And you said you don't have a name… Then can I give you a name?” The little boy asked innocently. He smiled to the monster as the monster looked at him flabbergasted. A name was what he desired for this whole time. Centuries, if he needed to be specific… A knot tied around his throat. “I will call you as…” the boy told him his name for the first time many years back then. And now, it had been many years that the monster last heard that someone said that name out loud.
***
“... Satoshi!” Sho voiced it out way more louder than he originally intended. Jun and Aiba turned over him worried.
“Sho-san, are you alright?” Jun asked gingerly. Aiba was carefully eying him from where he sit next to Jun.
“Ah? Oh! I am! I mean, yes, I am okay. Sorry for yelling,” Sho said trying to brush it off.
“Sho-chan, you sure you okay? I mean you are behaving strange from the moment you came back…” Aiba moved over his seat to sit next to Sho.
“Nothing. Nothing happened. I told you I just got lost and couldn’t find the car so I just came back,” Sho said loyally.
“But that doesn’t explain why you called out a name which none of us know…” Jun said smartly.
“And you haven’t checked your phone from the time you got back!” Aiba pointed out. “The Sakurai Sho we know would check his phone even if he is in the middle of a skydiving.”
“You are exaggerating it! There’s no way I would go to a skydiving,” Sho defended himself.
“But you are not denying the fact that you would check your phone,” Jun was sharp as always and Sho especially hated it now.
“There’s no signal here, there won’t be anything even if I check.” He said calmly.
“But that wouldn’t stop you from trying to get a signal. Come on, we know you better than you think,” Aiba insisted.
Sho sighed heavily. “I don’t have any problem guys. Stop assuming that I have a problem just because I haven’t checked my phone.” However even Sho was aware that there was no way he could fool his friends like this. But he also knew that they were going to let him be.
“This camping area is not good for Sho-chan after all, Jun-pon,” Aiba said pouting a little.
“Yeah, I guess it was a bad idea to come to a nostalgic place,” Jun shrugged. “You remember Sho-san was weird back then at the summer camp too, right?”
“Eh?” Sho looked at them baffled. “Wait this camping place is that camping place? Seriously?!”
Aiba laughed out loud. “You just realized that? Sho-chan you turned out such a workaholic, you don't even remember our summer camp! Oh wait, you were hardly with us so no wonder you don't remember here,” Aiba giggled a bit. “Jun-pon the meats are done I guess.”
With that the talk moved towards a different direction which saved Sho from any further discussion about their old camp adventures.
Thanks to Aiba, everything seemed to make sense for Sho. Why that man felt that familiar to him, and why he remembered those warning words…
It was when he was 10 years old that his parents were too busy to have him at home, they simply sent Sho over to a summer camp for two weeks. But he didn't remember anything about it other than meeting Jun and Aiba at that camp. Maybe it was because he didn't wanted to go to that camp at all, or maybe he hated the fact that his parents simply abandoned him to that camp. He always tried to be strong however he remembered that he truly felt hurt at that time.
How come I forget about you? Sho thought sadly. You were the one who saved me and look at me, I forgot about you.
Remembering the lonesome expression on the man's face Sho felt a tight knot in his throat. I simply forgot about your presence which was so endearing for me at that time.
***
Next day as soon as Sho wake up, he prepared a rucksack for himself and tried to sneak out before Aiba and Jun could found out. He was not really good with sneaking out but somehow he managed to get away without anyone noticing him.
It was still early for jogging however he felt more than awake. He tried to ignore the fact that he was unable to sleep last night. Every time he closed his eyes, the man, Satoshi would visit his mind, with that lonely but beautiful silhouette. Ambiguous memories invaded his mind and Sho realized that he needed answers.
Was that man really him? Was he really Satoshi? Sho wanted to know more than anything.
He met Satoshi when he was just 10. It was a hot summer day, which rained strangely. That day was one of the weirdest days for Sho. But as he was just 10 years old, when a tanned man stopped a big dead tree from falling above his head with just one hand Sho was convinced that he was just strong. Extremely strong, to be more specific. And that didn’t made any sense to grown up Sho who doesn’t believed in fairy tales anymore.
When he reached the part where the path curled and continued towards the cars area, Sho just turned and ducked in the woods, with a determined look on his face.
He tried to remember the way he walked with the man however it was still impossible for him to find his way in the forest. He struggled with dead trees, he trip because of the bushes and he was beyond tired. Did he disappeared again? Did he leave without a trace again? Sho felt tears started to build in his eyes. He closed his eyes tightly in order to stop those tears coming to surface. “Why?” He voiced out without realizing. “Why are you disappearing always?”
But there was no answer. There’s no way I am going to give up before finding you! he thought stubbornly as he continued to walk deeper in the woods. The longer he walked, the ticker was forest becoming and from some point, he couldn’t even see what is ahead of him. The trees were everywhere; they were even blocking the sun above him. It was that moment when Sho steppede into an emptiness. His eyes widened and before he could gain the control of his body, he was falling. He shut his eyes tightly as the sickening feeling of height hit him hard which was scarier than falling itself. There was nothing he could do, he was going to die here without seeing him. He couldn’t even scream because of the fear.
However he never hit the hard ground as he expected. He slowly opened his eyes when he felt he wasn’t falling anymore. The first thing he realized was that he was lying on a flower bed, then looked up seeing broken ivy branches it clicked him. He was lucky.
He stood up slowly and looked around himself, just to see a small garden which looked like it popped out of fairy tales. His eyes widened as he saw all kind of flowers with various colors surround a small wooden hut. The sunlight was illuminating the hut while giving it a heavenly feeling. It was a small paradise and it reminded Sho of an art piece which came out of a talented artist. It was beautiful, the most beautiful place in the world.
“How did you find here?” Sho heard his voice behind him. It wasn’t surprising, Sho smiled. So this is your house, he thought before turning around to face him.
“I came to find you,” Sho said calmly; trying his best to not to be affected by him.
“I have nothing to do with you,” The man said averting his eyes from Sho, he started walking towards the hut. But Sho was determined this time.
“But I have!” He said narrowing his eyes. “You are Satoshi, right?” When he said his name, the man stiffened visibly. Sho’s eyes widened. He was right for all this time. He was right!
A/N: There are a lot of things going on. Let's wait and see what will happen to Sho and Satoshi! I am so excited for every chapter! I hope everyone likes this one too!
Pairing: Yama
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Fantasy, au, angts (kind of) magic, romance
Chaptered
Disclaimer: Unfortunately I do not own anything about Arashi. Only the plot is mine.
Summary: Is a monster with a created mind and heart was allowed to love a human? The monster knew it was impossible however the first moment he saw Sakurai Sho in that forest, he had no other choice to fall for his beautiful eyes.
As for Sho; his first encounter with him was a pure coincidence and falling for him was beyond his control.
A/N: Comments are very very welcomed! English is not my native language so I apologize for my mistakes in advance! I am deeply sorry! m(_ _)m
The monster understood everything perfectly. Everything including that he is a created life for the purpose of staying with his creator, that he was a marionette in his owner's hands... That’s why the monster always stayed quiet. He listened The Witch, he answered The Witch, he stayed with The Witch.
One day, his creator allowed him to ask one thing from her. Because she simply wanted to grant one wish for her docile monster.
The monster though, didn’t have anything to wish from his creator. Because he wasn’t a human; so were there a meaning to wish for anything that will disappear soon? The monster looked at the ground. He wanted to grant his creator’s wish; because she wanted him to ask something from her. Because he was created to grant her wishes. That's why he did his best. He tried to find something to please her but the only thing he could think of was nothing but a simple desire. A desire which he wasn't allowed to feel at all… “Then can you give me a name?” The monster asked. A name, would be good. A name was what he wished for all this time. He looked at The Witch’s eyes. Something moved inside him, something funny. Filling his created heart with a sweet warmness.
That was the first time that the monster felt hopeful.
***
Sho was walking behind the adventurer as he lead the way. Which was actually a good thing because now that he wasn't facing with this mysterious man, Sho realized he could think straight. It was funny how this man made Sho speechless for a moment. And it was certainly funny that how this man erased the fire of Sho’s anger and his never ending love for his work, just by being close to him. Sho haven't even tried to check his phone as he walked after the adventurer which was quite weird for the workaholic Sakurai Sho. Sho would check his phone even if he were to be in the middle of hell. But he couldn't think anything other than observing closely this mysterious man.
The man was short. At least he was shorter than Sho. And he looked really slim. The sleepy look he had on his face could be mocked easily however his eyes burned with a certain intensity. His bright eyes looked like he could see anything and everything and the way he averted his gaze told nothing to Sho. But Sho knew that nothings were what hide everything.
“You are inattentive,” He heard suddenly the man’s voice which caused Sho to stop his step in the air.
“What?” He asked somehow stupidly. Did he just insulted him?
“I said you are inattentive,” the man repeated himself not even turning to look at Sho. “You are about to smash a rabbit nest.” He said this time eyeing him a little.
“Oh,” Sho looked in front of him just to see a rabbit hole a few centimeters away from his feet. He blinked a few times.
“That’s why I don’t like campers,” the man mumbled calmly, turning his gaze to the way he was walking.
“Excuse me?” Sho frowned. Okay, he might be at fault because he wasn’t looking where he was going but this didn’t mean that this man could insult him as he pleased. “And you are quite arrogant despite your laid back looks,” Sho said sharply while narrowing his eyes as if he could pierce through the man’s back.
But the man take the wrong decision and he simply said, “Thank you,” to Sho’s wry words.
“I am not praising you,” Sho said this time more angrily.
“Yeah, whatever,” the man continued walking. One thing bothered Sho more than anything: The man didn’t face him even once.
“And you are rude, aren’t you?” Sho said as his anger made him forget that his mind was actually full of this man for a moment.
“So what?” The man said; again, not turning around to face Sho.
This time, angry Sho take action as he closed the distance between them with a fast move. At least he thought like that.
Before Sho can reach the man, the man caught his wrist and captured him between a big tree’s body and himself swiftly. Sho let out a soundless gasp, suddenly finding himself really close to the man. His hold in his wrist was soft but his eyes shone with a different light. “Never attack someone from behind,” the man said calmly. His voice harboured different emotions which Sho wasn’t capable of defining every one of them. Sho tried to take a deep breath as his heart beat fastened with the sudden closeness. His touch on Sho’s arm was warm; warm enough to cause an electricity run through Sho’s skin more intensely than before he walked past him. Sho felt like he was taken into a whirlpool which was in the man’s eyes. Once again, he felt like all his anger sucked by the man. He felt vulnerable. He felt vulnerable towards a total stranger. As if he was drawn him by some kind of magic, he was feeling naked in front of those bright eyes.
The man, broke their contact first, like before. “I am sorry,” he mumbled almost inaudible. Why? Sho thought. He didn’t really know what or whom to that question directed but that was the only thing echoed his mind. He really wanted to know why.
Why did he apologized? Why did he avert his gaze from me again? Why he never dares to look at me? Why did he sound that lonesome? Why did he looked that scared? Why do I care? Why do I want want him to continue to touch me? Why did his touch felt that warm, that familiar against my skin? Why?!
But he couldn’t ask any of those questions. He found himself facing with the back of the mysterious man once again as if nothing had happened. Before he could say anything the man, “Let’s get going, it will be dark,” said masking his emotions under a calm voice.
He doesn’t remember me, the monster thought simply. He could do nothing about that fact. The monster has lived through many centuries and thanks to his creator he also had a good memory, but never once in his whole life, he felt this powerless towards anything. Never once in his life, the monster felt confused this much and this tortured at the same time. He was torn between the desire to hug the man who was walking behind him and wanting to let him go.
The monster, felt as if his whole being was breaking into many pieces. He was used to pain. And also being lonely. Even the burning feeling of betrayal was better than this. The man who was walking behind him was torturing him. He felt as if that man was holding the strings of his being.
***
“Are you alright?” The monster asked the little boy who was looking at him with an amazed gaze while the monster held the dead tree with one hand from falling onto the little boy. The monster felt like he was trapped in those well shaped, bright eyes.
And the little boy smiled.
That was the best smile the monster had ever seen in his long life, making his created heart jump from its place. It felt too good to be true, too beautiful to be exist. Too magical to be in front of his eyes.
He wasn’t allowed to feel like this. The monster knew it perfectly, however his heart didn’t want to accept it once their hands touched. The monster felt powerless, and he also felt stronger as if he could fight with the world which denied his presence, for him. For that beautiful smile, for those bright eyes.
***
He smiled bitterly trusting the fact that the man walking behind him couldn’t see any of his expressions. The monster knew that even if Sho didn’t remember anything, he would still be sad seeing this lonely expression of his. Because he was Sho; because he was the one and only person that let the monster belong somewhere. Even though he had forgotten about it, there was no way for the monster to forget. The monster tried to swallow the tears that started to build in his eyes. Tears were something he discovered after many years of his creation. He was a monster, without any humanly feelings; yet it seemed like he could shed tears like a human. Ironic. A monster who was shedding tears for a human…
The monster didn't know what to do. Were there any way to stop this feelings? Were there any way to make him remember the monster? No, the monster thought firmly. It's better like this. I am a monster. I am not allowed to feel like this towards you.
Their walk went quietly. The monster was aware that Sho was feeling confused as he avoided any talk between them. He quietly lead the way he camping area while his only desire was to reach his hand and touch Sho’s soft cheeks. It was stupid, the monster knew it very well. Yet he still wanted.
Once they reached the path which was made with human hands when that camping are was building, he stopped. The monster remembered the day when that camping are was building. He remembered that he felt trapped at that time. However he stopped hating that camping are when it brought Sho to him as a lost little boy.
“Here,” the monster said not looking at him. “If you follow this path, you will reach the camping area.”
Sho, didn’t say anything. The monster looked at him with the corner of his eye; Sho was looking at the ground. The monster smiled sadly and before he could stop himself, he said; “Don’t wander around too much, the woods are still dangerous.”
Sho looked at him suddenly as if he was shot by some kind of lightning. “What did you said?” He asked baffled. His eyes got bigger as he tried to catch the monsters eyes. “How did you know that? What is your name? Who are you?” Sho asked.
But before he could get any answers, the monster disappeared from his sight. As if he wasn’t there from the very beginning.
***
The very first time the monster met Sho was when he was little. It was a two weeks long summer camp. Since his parents were too busy to have him at home in the summer holiday, they had sent him to that summer camp, at least that was what Sho told him. It was the first day of his camp when Sho rebelliously wanted to flee from the camping area. The boy, lost his way in the middle of forest and compared to present time, the woods were thicker.
A rain storm was nearing when the monster found the boy in the forest. He was wandering around with a scared gaze and the monster watched him closely from a safe distance. The monster was scared of humans, or more likely he was scared of them knowing the fact that he is a monster. However when the wild wind made a dead tree fall over to the spot where the boy was standing, his body moved before his mind. He stopped the tree, and looked at the little boy in front of him; feeling his heart beat once again after many years. There was no way he could forget that day which was scraped to his whole existence.
After that first encounter, Sho seemed like he acknowledged the monster as a friend. He keep coming to the forest as if he was seeking the accompany of the monster. And for the monster; the little Sho was cute, and he was also hurt deep inside; like the monster. Little by little the monster felt that Sho’s presence was becoming dear to him. Which was strange and very agonizing… But he couldn’t resist the power of Sho’s being which draw the monster to little boy.
On their third meet, Sho asked him a question. “How long are you trying to keep your name as a secret?”
The monster felt confused. Because simply, he didn’t had any name. The Witch never gave him a name, which he desired for too much. The monster sadly averted his eyes from Sho’s beautiful gaze. “Monster. Call me like that.”
The monster could feel Sho’s confusion even without looking at him. “But you aren’t a monster…” he said calmly. “How come you don’t have any name? Were your parents also too busy for you?”
“No… It’s not like that…” The monster muttered. He didn’t know how to explain it to the little boy.
“Hmm… Calling you as Monster doesn’t feel right. And you said you don't have a name… Then can I give you a name?” The little boy asked innocently. He smiled to the monster as the monster looked at him flabbergasted. A name was what he desired for this whole time. Centuries, if he needed to be specific… A knot tied around his throat. “I will call you as…” the boy told him his name for the first time many years back then. And now, it had been many years that the monster last heard that someone said that name out loud.
***
“... Satoshi!” Sho voiced it out way more louder than he originally intended. Jun and Aiba turned over him worried.
“Sho-san, are you alright?” Jun asked gingerly. Aiba was carefully eying him from where he sit next to Jun.
“Ah? Oh! I am! I mean, yes, I am okay. Sorry for yelling,” Sho said trying to brush it off.
“Sho-chan, you sure you okay? I mean you are behaving strange from the moment you came back…” Aiba moved over his seat to sit next to Sho.
“Nothing. Nothing happened. I told you I just got lost and couldn’t find the car so I just came back,” Sho said loyally.
“But that doesn’t explain why you called out a name which none of us know…” Jun said smartly.
“And you haven’t checked your phone from the time you got back!” Aiba pointed out. “The Sakurai Sho we know would check his phone even if he is in the middle of a skydiving.”
“You are exaggerating it! There’s no way I would go to a skydiving,” Sho defended himself.
“But you are not denying the fact that you would check your phone,” Jun was sharp as always and Sho especially hated it now.
“There’s no signal here, there won’t be anything even if I check.” He said calmly.
“But that wouldn’t stop you from trying to get a signal. Come on, we know you better than you think,” Aiba insisted.
Sho sighed heavily. “I don’t have any problem guys. Stop assuming that I have a problem just because I haven’t checked my phone.” However even Sho was aware that there was no way he could fool his friends like this. But he also knew that they were going to let him be.
“This camping area is not good for Sho-chan after all, Jun-pon,” Aiba said pouting a little.
“Yeah, I guess it was a bad idea to come to a nostalgic place,” Jun shrugged. “You remember Sho-san was weird back then at the summer camp too, right?”
“Eh?” Sho looked at them baffled. “Wait this camping place is that camping place? Seriously?!”
Aiba laughed out loud. “You just realized that? Sho-chan you turned out such a workaholic, you don't even remember our summer camp! Oh wait, you were hardly with us so no wonder you don't remember here,” Aiba giggled a bit. “Jun-pon the meats are done I guess.”
With that the talk moved towards a different direction which saved Sho from any further discussion about their old camp adventures.
Thanks to Aiba, everything seemed to make sense for Sho. Why that man felt that familiar to him, and why he remembered those warning words…
It was when he was 10 years old that his parents were too busy to have him at home, they simply sent Sho over to a summer camp for two weeks. But he didn't remember anything about it other than meeting Jun and Aiba at that camp. Maybe it was because he didn't wanted to go to that camp at all, or maybe he hated the fact that his parents simply abandoned him to that camp. He always tried to be strong however he remembered that he truly felt hurt at that time.
How come I forget about you? Sho thought sadly. You were the one who saved me and look at me, I forgot about you.
Remembering the lonesome expression on the man's face Sho felt a tight knot in his throat. I simply forgot about your presence which was so endearing for me at that time.
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Next day as soon as Sho wake up, he prepared a rucksack for himself and tried to sneak out before Aiba and Jun could found out. He was not really good with sneaking out but somehow he managed to get away without anyone noticing him.
It was still early for jogging however he felt more than awake. He tried to ignore the fact that he was unable to sleep last night. Every time he closed his eyes, the man, Satoshi would visit his mind, with that lonely but beautiful silhouette. Ambiguous memories invaded his mind and Sho realized that he needed answers.
Was that man really him? Was he really Satoshi? Sho wanted to know more than anything.
He met Satoshi when he was just 10. It was a hot summer day, which rained strangely. That day was one of the weirdest days for Sho. But as he was just 10 years old, when a tanned man stopped a big dead tree from falling above his head with just one hand Sho was convinced that he was just strong. Extremely strong, to be more specific. And that didn’t made any sense to grown up Sho who doesn’t believed in fairy tales anymore.
When he reached the part where the path curled and continued towards the cars area, Sho just turned and ducked in the woods, with a determined look on his face.
He tried to remember the way he walked with the man however it was still impossible for him to find his way in the forest. He struggled with dead trees, he trip because of the bushes and he was beyond tired. Did he disappeared again? Did he leave without a trace again? Sho felt tears started to build in his eyes. He closed his eyes tightly in order to stop those tears coming to surface. “Why?” He voiced out without realizing. “Why are you disappearing always?”
But there was no answer. There’s no way I am going to give up before finding you! he thought stubbornly as he continued to walk deeper in the woods. The longer he walked, the ticker was forest becoming and from some point, he couldn’t even see what is ahead of him. The trees were everywhere; they were even blocking the sun above him. It was that moment when Sho steppede into an emptiness. His eyes widened and before he could gain the control of his body, he was falling. He shut his eyes tightly as the sickening feeling of height hit him hard which was scarier than falling itself. There was nothing he could do, he was going to die here without seeing him. He couldn’t even scream because of the fear.
However he never hit the hard ground as he expected. He slowly opened his eyes when he felt he wasn’t falling anymore. The first thing he realized was that he was lying on a flower bed, then looked up seeing broken ivy branches it clicked him. He was lucky.
He stood up slowly and looked around himself, just to see a small garden which looked like it popped out of fairy tales. His eyes widened as he saw all kind of flowers with various colors surround a small wooden hut. The sunlight was illuminating the hut while giving it a heavenly feeling. It was a small paradise and it reminded Sho of an art piece which came out of a talented artist. It was beautiful, the most beautiful place in the world.
“How did you find here?” Sho heard his voice behind him. It wasn’t surprising, Sho smiled. So this is your house, he thought before turning around to face him.
“I came to find you,” Sho said calmly; trying his best to not to be affected by him.
“I have nothing to do with you,” The man said averting his eyes from Sho, he started walking towards the hut. But Sho was determined this time.
“But I have!” He said narrowing his eyes. “You are Satoshi, right?” When he said his name, the man stiffened visibly. Sho’s eyes widened. He was right for all this time. He was right!
A/N: There are a lot of things going on. Let's wait and see what will happen to Sho and Satoshi! I am so excited for every chapter! I hope everyone likes this one too!
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Date: 2018-02-13 06:11 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-02-18 09:40 pm (UTC)Thank you for reading it Q!! I am so happy that you like it!
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Date: 2018-02-13 12:52 pm (UTC)Can't wait for the next chapter, thanks for sharing such a sweet and interesting chapter! ♡
Okay, not exactly sweet, but I can't really find words to describe it. Like the feeling of a forest after the rain, when the sun is just staring to peek out from behind the remains of the clouds and everything is just calm and sweet and yet sad at the same time... that's the image I got from this chapter.
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Date: 2018-02-18 09:42 pm (UTC)We will have lots of yama moments, because why not lol
And omg that was the exact feeling I wanted to express :") I am so happy! Because the story is not exactly sad but still sad :") I am really really happy. Hope you like the next one too!!